My Begining

My birthday was last weekend. During the party I got to hang out with some people who I haven't seen for a long time. While we were talking, they all just seemed so terrified of life after college. They were so reluctant to leave this place, to go out there, to grow up. And yes, part of me is really scared too. It's scary to think that I have no idea what my life will be like 6 months from now. It's scary to think that in just a few months time I will be leaving everything that is familiar and comfortable and going out into the big adult world.

But even more so, I am excited. I am prepared. I am willing and ready to be an adult and to participate in the adult world and to make a change. Why do I suddenly feel so strong and assertive and unafraid for the first time in my life?

It's because of him.

It's knowing that he will be with me that gives me the strength and courage to face all other changes. I'm excited to do things and to make changes, because I know that I will be doing them with him. I'm not afraid of leaving Ohio and moving to a huge strange city where I have very little clue about what I'm doing or where I'm going, because I know that at the end of the hectic crazy day I will be able to be in his arms. The most comfortable, safest, perfect place in the world.

Someone told me that New York and LA can be very lonely places. As long as I'm with him, I can make it anywhere.

Happy Valentine's Day, and I love you.