My Begining

I think that disgustingly long breaks are intended to remind you why you went away to college in the first place. With a few exceptions, my days have been like this:

Wake up around noon-thirty.
Eat
Watch television
Get disgusted with network television
Smoke
Get on the internet
Get disgusted with dial up
Wander the house
Eat
Watch PBS until Scrubs comes on at 11
Stay up until 3 or 4 wasting time on our insanely slow internet

I need to get out of this house and get back to my real life. Perhaps I really do need the structure, otherwise I'd just atrophy. God I'm so fucking lazy.

Alright, in order to force myself to attempt to stick to some of these, I'm going to post my new year's resolutions:

Do my best - if I'm going to do something, then really give 100%. There's no point in doing something if I'm not going to really do my best.
Create - this means art, film, writing. This includes putting stuff up on youtube and working on scripts
Create Change - I'm always complaining that the world is going to shit and that something needs to be done. Well fucking do it.
Handle Change - This is going to be a big year. I honestly have no idea what my life will look like one year from now. So handle change well, don't be afraid and don't let it cripple you.
Leave Ohio - most likely in conjunction with getting a job.
Get my own apartment - something that I feel represents independence and really being grown up. Bring it own
Keep learning - read more, watch more PBS, start paying attention to the news more
Write more letters by hand - I was really good at this during the summer at the Headlands. Start doing it again
Meditate - really think about things, try to find some answers
Go to the Gyno - eeep....haven't done that before, and I probably should.

okay....Those are reasonable goals, right? I'm going back to Denison on Friday. I have a lot I want to do between now and then. And once I get back, I have even more to do. Time to get back into the swing of things, Amber. Go team!