Know what? I really don't understand 'couples'. By that I mean people who are in relationships, and ACT like they're in a relationship. You know the ones I'm talking about. One second they will be a normal, cohesive, human being, and the next they're a huge pile of mush, using words like 'snuggle' and 'tickle fight'. Not only does it make me sick, but I honestly just don't understand that. And don't think it's just the girls who do this, guys are just as likely to fall into this...which is even scarrier.
I just don't understand how people can completly change like that. I don't think that true love should do that. I mean, of course love will change you, it's a strong and powerful force. But I don't think that love should cause you to be a different person with your significant other than you are with everyone else. If it does change you, it should change everything, shake you to your core, alter your life view...not just make you a blubbering ball of sentiment when you're with that special someone.
I guess my conception of love is somewhat different from other people's. I think that love is strong, powerful, awe inspiring. It doesn't always have to be romantic and grand. It can work quietly.
I'm not saying there's anything wrong with people who act like 'couples'. I just mean I don't think I'll ever understand them. I don't think that will be me. It never has been, and I just can't imagine becoming that. Of course, what do I know? I've never been in love.
A friend once called me a hardass. I've never thought of myself as that before...am I? I just value strength, and I don't really have a tolerance for mush and shameless displays of emotions like crying and constant talking. I think my emotions come through in other forms, namely art and writing. The more I think about it, the more I realize how lost I would be without art. I don't consider myself anything wonderful when it comes to art, it honestly is for my personal expression. Things I don't allow myself to express in other ways come through in my art.
So to my future Mr. Right, don't be upset if I don't act like a mushy romantic, I'll still love you. And I'll make beautiful art for you.
