Thursday, June 30, 2005
Looks like things aren't as bad as I first thought. After inspection by Mary's dad, Miss Kitty has been declared ok. All she really needs is a headlight and a fender, so the total cost isn't going to be nearly as much as the guy at the body shop said. So yeh, that's good.
I've come up with a somewhat cool idea. I'm going to write a message in this entry to individual people, and say things that I could never/ have never said to them in person. The catch is, I'm not going to say who each message is for. It's up to you to try to figure out which message is for you. Ok, so maybe it's a dumb idea, but I'm bored so deal with it.
-You are amazing. Everything you do for me is wonderful. Thank you, I love you. I know sometimes I take too much, but you always are there, thank you.
-I've never really seen the dark side of you that you're always talking about, but I hope you know that I'm here for you. You are buckets of fun, and you really could do something great if you just try.
-You are the greatest. I know we'll be friends for life. I worry about you a lot, and even though we don't get to talk as much as I'd like, you know I'll always be there. I hope you know what you're doing with the future and your plans. You seem happy, and that's what matters. I love you lots.
-Are you gay? Not that it would change anything between us, but sometimes I just wonder.
-You mean so much to me. No matter what happens, I never want to lose our friendship. When I'm with you, everything feels so comfortable and fun. Thank you, you're an amazing person.
-You have changed me, a lot, a little for the worse and a bit for the better. Maybe I don't mean as much to you as you do to me, but whatever. We had fun, and I've grown a lot.
-You are delightful. Smile, because you always make me smile.
-Sometimes you really get on my nerves. I don't know what it is, but you just need to lighten up some.
-You are my hero. Seriously, I want to be like you.
-You need to brush your teeth. You're a nice person, but talking to you can be painful sometimes.
Ok, so have fun trying to figure out if/what I wrote to you.
oh, and here's a photo from the Columbus Art Museum. Yes, that is a jiant barrel suspended on a rope. It's ART! (makes me think of Donkey Kong!)
I've come up with a somewhat cool idea. I'm going to write a message in this entry to individual people, and say things that I could never/ have never said to them in person. The catch is, I'm not going to say who each message is for. It's up to you to try to figure out which message is for you. Ok, so maybe it's a dumb idea, but I'm bored so deal with it.
-You are amazing. Everything you do for me is wonderful. Thank you, I love you. I know sometimes I take too much, but you always are there, thank you.
-I've never really seen the dark side of you that you're always talking about, but I hope you know that I'm here for you. You are buckets of fun, and you really could do something great if you just try.
-You are the greatest. I know we'll be friends for life. I worry about you a lot, and even though we don't get to talk as much as I'd like, you know I'll always be there. I hope you know what you're doing with the future and your plans. You seem happy, and that's what matters. I love you lots.
-Are you gay? Not that it would change anything between us, but sometimes I just wonder.
-You mean so much to me. No matter what happens, I never want to lose our friendship. When I'm with you, everything feels so comfortable and fun. Thank you, you're an amazing person.
-You have changed me, a lot, a little for the worse and a bit for the better. Maybe I don't mean as much to you as you do to me, but whatever. We had fun, and I've grown a lot.
-You are delightful. Smile, because you always make me smile.
-Sometimes you really get on my nerves. I don't know what it is, but you just need to lighten up some.
-You are my hero. Seriously, I want to be like you.
-You need to brush your teeth. You're a nice person, but talking to you can be painful sometimes.
Ok, so have fun trying to figure out if/what I wrote to you.
oh, and here's a photo from the Columbus Art Museum. Yes, that is a jiant barrel suspended on a rope. It's ART! (makes me think of Donkey Kong!)
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Monday, June 27, 2005
Well, it's turning out to be a shittastic week.
I won't be home this weekend...
Jenna wrecked my car.
See, Jenna doesn't know how to drive. She has a learner's permit though. So I agreed to help her learn this summer. Yesterday was our first day out, her first time ever really driving. We practiced around campus and in a parking lot for a bit. Then I decided it would be good to take her out on a country road. We were going downhill, and went to turn right at the bottom of the hill. But she didn't break enough or something, so we took the turn wide and ended up in a guard rail. We're ok, no one got hurt. Just Miss Kitty. There's dammage to the headlight, the grill, and the frame - we couldn't open the driver door all the way. But it was able to drive back to Denison. So right now she's in the body shop, getting the minimum done to make it drivable. We got an estimate, and the guy said to completly fix everything, it would cost $3,800 which is more than the car is worth. So we're getting it fixed enough to let us drive it around. Jenna's friend Marry's dad is really good with cars, so we're gonna take it to him and have him look at it and tell us what he thinks. If there is no real dammage done to the engine and stuff, I may end up just driving around a beat up car. There's also the option of trying to get it fixed, but if it cost more than $1,000 it's just not worth it. Then again, we may look around for a new used car. I'm not sure what exactly I want to do. I don't want to drive around a banged up car and look all white trash, but then I don't have to money to get a new car. Jenna says she'll pay for it, but I dunno if she really has the money either. I dunno...it's just so stressful and crappy.
And when I called my dad, he was completly unhelpful. He was yelling at me about how they don't have the money to replace the car. Like I don't know that! I know we're broke. I know that I'm going to have to handle this myself. Mom said he's just worried about me and stressed out. Well, I'm worried and stressed too. I need someone to counteract that, not yell at me and make me cry.
I can't help but feel maybe I deserve this. Maybe this is some sort of divine payment for the things I've been doing. I know it's stupid, but that's how I feel. I'm not a good person, I try to pretend like I am, but I'm so not. I'm deserving of this sort of thing. But it scares me a lot. I don't know what I'm going to do. I was saving up my money to try to go to Ireland next year, and now I really don't think that's going to happen.
Damn it, this sucks. I try so hard, and somehow I always screw things up. I shouldn't have let an unlicenced driver drive my car, this is my fault.
I talked to Crystal for a while about it. It was really good to talk to someone from home. It's times like these that I really just want someone from home to talk to and to give me a hug. As crappy as it is, I love that car, and I don't want to get rid of it.
Damn it, I hate being poor! I hate it! I know, I know, we're middle class, there's a lot of people out there way worse off than us. But we're definantly not rich. Mom drives a car that's even worse than mine! We're in debt, and most of it is MY education. I'm responsible for all this shit that I bring to my family, and I hate it. Dad droped like $1000 to fix the radiator in that car only a few months ago. I feel so guilty for being such a burdon on my parents. I know how much they sacrifice for me, and it's like I just keep taking from them. I hate it! I wish we didn't have to worry about money. This sucks so much! Maybe I'll try to find job somewhere, earn some extra money or something, but would I even be able to keep the job durring the school year? I don't know... this whole situation sucks, and I just can't handle it.
I'm a terriable person, I'm a fake and a liar, I'm self-centered and lazy. I'm not writing this for your sympathy, so don't give it to me. It's true. Why am I incapeable of being the person I want to be? This whole thing just sucks. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I won't be home this weekend...
Jenna wrecked my car.
See, Jenna doesn't know how to drive. She has a learner's permit though. So I agreed to help her learn this summer. Yesterday was our first day out, her first time ever really driving. We practiced around campus and in a parking lot for a bit. Then I decided it would be good to take her out on a country road. We were going downhill, and went to turn right at the bottom of the hill. But she didn't break enough or something, so we took the turn wide and ended up in a guard rail. We're ok, no one got hurt. Just Miss Kitty. There's dammage to the headlight, the grill, and the frame - we couldn't open the driver door all the way. But it was able to drive back to Denison. So right now she's in the body shop, getting the minimum done to make it drivable. We got an estimate, and the guy said to completly fix everything, it would cost $3,800 which is more than the car is worth. So we're getting it fixed enough to let us drive it around. Jenna's friend Marry's dad is really good with cars, so we're gonna take it to him and have him look at it and tell us what he thinks. If there is no real dammage done to the engine and stuff, I may end up just driving around a beat up car. There's also the option of trying to get it fixed, but if it cost more than $1,000 it's just not worth it. Then again, we may look around for a new used car. I'm not sure what exactly I want to do. I don't want to drive around a banged up car and look all white trash, but then I don't have to money to get a new car. Jenna says she'll pay for it, but I dunno if she really has the money either. I dunno...it's just so stressful and crappy.
And when I called my dad, he was completly unhelpful. He was yelling at me about how they don't have the money to replace the car. Like I don't know that! I know we're broke. I know that I'm going to have to handle this myself. Mom said he's just worried about me and stressed out. Well, I'm worried and stressed too. I need someone to counteract that, not yell at me and make me cry.
I can't help but feel maybe I deserve this. Maybe this is some sort of divine payment for the things I've been doing. I know it's stupid, but that's how I feel. I'm not a good person, I try to pretend like I am, but I'm so not. I'm deserving of this sort of thing. But it scares me a lot. I don't know what I'm going to do. I was saving up my money to try to go to Ireland next year, and now I really don't think that's going to happen.
Damn it, this sucks. I try so hard, and somehow I always screw things up. I shouldn't have let an unlicenced driver drive my car, this is my fault.
I talked to Crystal for a while about it. It was really good to talk to someone from home. It's times like these that I really just want someone from home to talk to and to give me a hug. As crappy as it is, I love that car, and I don't want to get rid of it.
Damn it, I hate being poor! I hate it! I know, I know, we're middle class, there's a lot of people out there way worse off than us. But we're definantly not rich. Mom drives a car that's even worse than mine! We're in debt, and most of it is MY education. I'm responsible for all this shit that I bring to my family, and I hate it. Dad droped like $1000 to fix the radiator in that car only a few months ago. I feel so guilty for being such a burdon on my parents. I know how much they sacrifice for me, and it's like I just keep taking from them. I hate it! I wish we didn't have to worry about money. This sucks so much! Maybe I'll try to find job somewhere, earn some extra money or something, but would I even be able to keep the job durring the school year? I don't know... this whole situation sucks, and I just can't handle it.
I'm a terriable person, I'm a fake and a liar, I'm self-centered and lazy. I'm not writing this for your sympathy, so don't give it to me. It's true. Why am I incapeable of being the person I want to be? This whole thing just sucks. I don't know what I'm going to do.
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
I've been a busy girl this week. Elia came up here wed. and on Thursday the three of us went to Cedar Point. It was very fun. The weather was perfect and the lines were short. The longest I waited in like was 50min for the Millinium Force. It was great. The drive home was exausting though. Friday, Noah came over and we went to see Batman Begins. It's a great flick. We also did some shopping, and I now have a piece! It's really pretty - blue and red with this intricate swirl glass design on the stem and the bowl. I've named it Cassandra. Cassandra was a woman in Greek literature. Apollo taught her the art of prophasy as a means of attempting to win her affections. However Cassandra did not love Apollo, so as punishment he cursed her so that no one would ever believe her true prophecies. I think it's a fitting name.
Hmmm...not really much else to post about. Here's a photo taken through our peep hole.
Oh, and ps...I may be in BG this comming weekend. But I need to find out if Ian and Tracy are planning anything for their birthday. Cause if they are I won't come home this weekend, and will come out for their birthday. So if you know anything about that, lemme know.
Hmmm...not really much else to post about. Here's a photo taken through our peep hole.
Oh, and ps...I may be in BG this comming weekend. But I need to find out if Ian and Tracy are planning anything for their birthday. Cause if they are I won't come home this weekend, and will come out for their birthday. So if you know anything about that, lemme know.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I missed doing photos last post, so here are some to make up for it:
Jenna being very film noir.
Denison at dusk.
Jenna yelling at me for climbing a trellis.
Jenna being very film noir.
Denison at dusk.
Jenna yelling at me for climbing a trellis.
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Monday, June 20, 2005
"Acting stupid, getting drunk with my best friends
I couldn't wait for the summer and the Warped Tour" - Blink 182
Oh my goodness...what a weekend this has been...
Thursday night, Tracy came down. We chilled, wandered around, went bra shopping at 1am, went to JPD, and stayed up until 4 just talking. On Friday we had a liesurly afternoon in Granville, and then the boys showed up. We went to the homestead, came back, and just hung out.
Saturday was the Warped Tour. and let me just say... amazing. Simply, amazing. I got to see Tsunami Bomb, The Dropkick Murphies, The Xplosion, The Offspring, MxPx, Hawthorne Heights, My Chemical Romance, Emery, No use for a name, and part of Fall Out Boy. I took a spill in the pit at Tsunami Bomb, and now my knee is all bloody and scraped. Rob also has a scraped knee from crowd surfing. The day was so killer. The pit at Emery was great. But I'd have to say the highlight of my day was MxPx. I mannaged to get up to the very front, which is not easy at all at the main stage. I was in the pit for a little bit, but it got pretty rough, so I got out. I was right up there, literally 3 squished rows of people from the stage. We were all squished in so tight, jumping up and down. It was crazy. There was this guy next to me (who was quite the hott) and we basically were grinding the whole set. He had a boner with a capital O! it was awsome!! The show was just a complete adriniline rush. Afterwards, I could barely walk, or hear, or talk. I just stumbled out, completly dazed and delighted. It was seriously an event of a lifetime.
Another cool thing that happened was I met a very cute drummer for the band All Left Out. They're a band from New Zeland. They're pretty small, and basically they're just following the tour trying to get picked up. I talked to him for a while, and ended up buying his album. He had a CD for me to listen to, and it sounded good, but I basically just bought it because he was cute and had a pretty accent. But when we got in the car, we put in the CD, and it was actually really good.
I have also decided that I have great respect for My Chemical Romance. I've always sorta liked their music, but after seeing them live, there was something the lead singer said that made me respect him greatly. He said he wanted to speak to the ladies in the audiance. He said that we should always go to rock concerts for the rest of our lives, but not to get sucked in by bullshit bands that degrade you and make you show your tits to get a backstage pass. He said "If they do that, I want you to throw everything in your pockets at them and spit right in their face!" I like that. It's not something you hear a lot of rock bands saying.
That night, we were all sun burnt to a crisp. I came home bloody, broken, burnt, exausted, my ears ringing, my throat soar, my body aching...and I wouldn't have traded it for the world. It was amazing.
Sunday we slept a lot. J-Flo came back, and we chilled with her and played Taboo for a long time. Then we grilled out, and kicked back and drank. I got wonderfully smashed and had an amazing conversation with Ian and Rob for hours. We were literally talking until about 3am.
Everyone left this morning. I'm still recovering from everything. I need to clean, but that will get done at some point. I also have a lot of work to catch up on, but once again...that will get done.
This weekend was simply amazing. It was one that I will never forget. I had an amazing time, and I'm so glad I got to share it with my best friends. I know you guys read this, so I just want to tell ya I love ya and I'm glad you came down!
I don't ever want to grow old.
I couldn't wait for the summer and the Warped Tour" - Blink 182
Oh my goodness...what a weekend this has been...
Thursday night, Tracy came down. We chilled, wandered around, went bra shopping at 1am, went to JPD, and stayed up until 4 just talking. On Friday we had a liesurly afternoon in Granville, and then the boys showed up. We went to the homestead, came back, and just hung out.
Saturday was the Warped Tour. and let me just say... amazing. Simply, amazing. I got to see Tsunami Bomb, The Dropkick Murphies, The Xplosion, The Offspring, MxPx, Hawthorne Heights, My Chemical Romance, Emery, No use for a name, and part of Fall Out Boy. I took a spill in the pit at Tsunami Bomb, and now my knee is all bloody and scraped. Rob also has a scraped knee from crowd surfing. The day was so killer. The pit at Emery was great. But I'd have to say the highlight of my day was MxPx. I mannaged to get up to the very front, which is not easy at all at the main stage. I was in the pit for a little bit, but it got pretty rough, so I got out. I was right up there, literally 3 squished rows of people from the stage. We were all squished in so tight, jumping up and down. It was crazy. There was this guy next to me (who was quite the hott) and we basically were grinding the whole set. He had a boner with a capital O! it was awsome!! The show was just a complete adriniline rush. Afterwards, I could barely walk, or hear, or talk. I just stumbled out, completly dazed and delighted. It was seriously an event of a lifetime.
Another cool thing that happened was I met a very cute drummer for the band All Left Out. They're a band from New Zeland. They're pretty small, and basically they're just following the tour trying to get picked up. I talked to him for a while, and ended up buying his album. He had a CD for me to listen to, and it sounded good, but I basically just bought it because he was cute and had a pretty accent. But when we got in the car, we put in the CD, and it was actually really good.
I have also decided that I have great respect for My Chemical Romance. I've always sorta liked their music, but after seeing them live, there was something the lead singer said that made me respect him greatly. He said he wanted to speak to the ladies in the audiance. He said that we should always go to rock concerts for the rest of our lives, but not to get sucked in by bullshit bands that degrade you and make you show your tits to get a backstage pass. He said "If they do that, I want you to throw everything in your pockets at them and spit right in their face!" I like that. It's not something you hear a lot of rock bands saying.
That night, we were all sun burnt to a crisp. I came home bloody, broken, burnt, exausted, my ears ringing, my throat soar, my body aching...and I wouldn't have traded it for the world. It was amazing.
Sunday we slept a lot. J-Flo came back, and we chilled with her and played Taboo for a long time. Then we grilled out, and kicked back and drank. I got wonderfully smashed and had an amazing conversation with Ian and Rob for hours. We were literally talking until about 3am.
Everyone left this morning. I'm still recovering from everything. I need to clean, but that will get done at some point. I also have a lot of work to catch up on, but once again...that will get done.
This weekend was simply amazing. It was one that I will never forget. I had an amazing time, and I'm so glad I got to share it with my best friends. I know you guys read this, so I just want to tell ya I love ya and I'm glad you came down!
I don't ever want to grow old.
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
REVENGE!!!!
Bloodie Bonnie screamed @ 11:24 AM | top
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
So this is going to be another psudo-political rant.
I just watched Is Wal-Mart Good for America on PBS. It's really interesting, (you should click that link, and you can watch the whole thing online). However, it is extreemly biased. They don't even really make an attempt to show the positive things that Wal-Mart has done. Wal-Mart has helped create revenue by providing jobs and by providing products at a low price - which also lowers the cost of living for lower/middle class Americans, putting more money in their pockets and in the market.
A big part of the documentary was about how Wal-Mart buys most of its products from China. However, what one must consider is that in the 90's, Wal-Mart started slipping a lot. In fact, it was on a downward decline. Their only way of keeping afloat was to go to China when Clinton opened up trade. Imagine if Wal-Mart had not done that. If the trend had continued, they would have gone under. If Wal-Mart went under, our market would have suffered an extreem blow that would have been hard to recover from. Wal-Mart is doing what is best for them, and as a result America profits.
Now I'm not saying Wal-Mart is perfect, or that their business conduct is always acceptable. I'm simply saying that there are two sides to everything, it's not pure evil as this documentary may have you believe. They are playing the market, like any company or business, and since they are sucessful, it's easy to point out their flaws. Now, they may not always play by the rules sometimes, but they're not pure evil.
On a slightly similar note: China, as you may recall, is a Communist country. However, we have open trade with them. Cuba is Communist, and yet we have an embargo on them...because they're Communist. Does this make sense to anyone else? The US embargo on Cuba is just stupid, and hurts both countries. How is it that after all these years our nation can't realize that free and open trade is GOOD and helps our economy and other countries?
Today's moral is: Think Libertarian.
oh, and here's today's photo:
Despite some gramatic trouble, I think it's a good message.
I just watched Is Wal-Mart Good for America on PBS. It's really interesting, (you should click that link, and you can watch the whole thing online). However, it is extreemly biased. They don't even really make an attempt to show the positive things that Wal-Mart has done. Wal-Mart has helped create revenue by providing jobs and by providing products at a low price - which also lowers the cost of living for lower/middle class Americans, putting more money in their pockets and in the market.
A big part of the documentary was about how Wal-Mart buys most of its products from China. However, what one must consider is that in the 90's, Wal-Mart started slipping a lot. In fact, it was on a downward decline. Their only way of keeping afloat was to go to China when Clinton opened up trade. Imagine if Wal-Mart had not done that. If the trend had continued, they would have gone under. If Wal-Mart went under, our market would have suffered an extreem blow that would have been hard to recover from. Wal-Mart is doing what is best for them, and as a result America profits.
Now I'm not saying Wal-Mart is perfect, or that their business conduct is always acceptable. I'm simply saying that there are two sides to everything, it's not pure evil as this documentary may have you believe. They are playing the market, like any company or business, and since they are sucessful, it's easy to point out their flaws. Now, they may not always play by the rules sometimes, but they're not pure evil.
On a slightly similar note: China, as you may recall, is a Communist country. However, we have open trade with them. Cuba is Communist, and yet we have an embargo on them...because they're Communist. Does this make sense to anyone else? The US embargo on Cuba is just stupid, and hurts both countries. How is it that after all these years our nation can't realize that free and open trade is GOOD and helps our economy and other countries?
Today's moral is: Think Libertarian.
oh, and here's today's photo:
Despite some gramatic trouble, I think it's a good message.
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Sometimes I hate men. No, I don't mean I hate men...I guess I just hate how our society caters towards men while degrading and devaluing women. It's just...sometimes I get so angry about the shit that women have to deal with. My mom says it's something that all young women go through,when you learn about the injustices of gender roles, it's normal to get angry. But she said most women grow out of it. Well, I don't want to grow out of it. Maybe that's why in such a 'modern' and 'progressive' world women still get the short end of the stick,because they stop being angry and learn to just accept it. Well, I'm not going to accept it, and I'm not going to swallow any bullshit. It's just so frustrating to see again and again how women get screwed over in our society.
What got me on this kick was our Summer Scholar's dinner tonight. Professor Suzanne Condray showed us a documentary she made. It was about The Columbus Quest, a women's basketball team who played in the American Basketball League in the late 90's. These women were simply amazing athletes. One of the women was a mom, and she brought her baby boy with her to all the games and practices and everything. Who says women can't ballance a hectic career and being a mother and a wife?
The film followed them through their first year, and as they won 2 champianships. Then, durring their third year, the ABL went bankrupt and was shut down. The film did a great job of focusing on the story of the team and their victories. But it got me to thinking about the sickening amount of money that male athletes make, while these women were barely making $30grand a year playing PROFESSIONAL SPORTS. Even now, the WNBA has yet to make a profit. The only reason it is still around is that there are powerful people in the NBA who think that it is important for women to have opprotunities to play professional sports. It just doesn't make sense. As we were watching the film, it was clear that the game was exciting, well played basketball. There's no reason for any sports fan to not be excited by women's sports too! Female athletes don't get the respect, the recognition, the media, or the money that they deserve. These women play because it's what they love, they don't play because of fame or fortune, cause it's not there. They are the real athletic heros of our time, because they represent sport at its purest and most honerable form.
So the moral for the day....support the WNBA and all women athletes.
oh, and here's a photo for you. I call it 'Less than Perfect love'.
What got me on this kick was our Summer Scholar's dinner tonight. Professor Suzanne Condray showed us a documentary she made. It was about The Columbus Quest, a women's basketball team who played in the American Basketball League in the late 90's. These women were simply amazing athletes. One of the women was a mom, and she brought her baby boy with her to all the games and practices and everything. Who says women can't ballance a hectic career and being a mother and a wife?
The film followed them through their first year, and as they won 2 champianships. Then, durring their third year, the ABL went bankrupt and was shut down. The film did a great job of focusing on the story of the team and their victories. But it got me to thinking about the sickening amount of money that male athletes make, while these women were barely making $30grand a year playing PROFESSIONAL SPORTS. Even now, the WNBA has yet to make a profit. The only reason it is still around is that there are powerful people in the NBA who think that it is important for women to have opprotunities to play professional sports. It just doesn't make sense. As we were watching the film, it was clear that the game was exciting, well played basketball. There's no reason for any sports fan to not be excited by women's sports too! Female athletes don't get the respect, the recognition, the media, or the money that they deserve. These women play because it's what they love, they don't play because of fame or fortune, cause it's not there. They are the real athletic heros of our time, because they represent sport at its purest and most honerable form.
So the moral for the day....support the WNBA and all women athletes.
oh, and here's a photo for you. I call it 'Less than Perfect love'.
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Friday, June 10, 2005
so, um i missed a day or so. not like ya'll care. ooooh...robot chicken is on. be right back.
God bless Seth Green.
So here are some goofy pics of me.
He watches me while I'm sleeping.
Jenna face, in honor of my MIA roomie.
I'm in BG this weekend, Yay!
I auditioned for a childrens theater thing today. I rather hope I
get the part. I just feel like it would be a good way to spend my
extra time, and hopefully meet some people on campus. Well, we'll
see! alright, a girl needs her beauty sleep.
God bless Seth Green.
So here are some goofy pics of me.
He watches me while I'm sleeping.
Jenna face, in honor of my MIA roomie.
I'm in BG this weekend, Yay!
I auditioned for a childrens theater thing today. I rather hope I
get the part. I just feel like it would be a good way to spend my
extra time, and hopefully meet some people on campus. Well, we'll
see! alright, a girl needs her beauty sleep.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
So it's day 2 on campus and day 2 of my attempt at a photo blog.
This is a really awsome house in Granville. It looks like a White Castle!
This tree was struck by lightening very recently. I like this photo. I think I might do something with this.
Here's some really cute kids in the park.
Have you ever noticed that whenever you do something new/different at
first you think you've made a mistake. That's how I feel right
now. I did a lot of work on my project today, and that's
cool. But I had like zero human interaction. I'm begining
to wonder if this whole staying on campus was really such a good
idea. I mean, I'm sure things will pick up soon, but it just
sucks right now. Like when I first went to BG, the first few
months were really awkward. I had even fewer friends than when I
was at Otsego, and I was convinced that it was the biggest mistake of
my life. But then I got into the drama club, I met a lot of
people, and now I realize that it was probably the best decision I
could have made. Same with when I came to denison my freshman
year. So even though this summer might turn out good...right now
I wish I had stayed home. I thought I wouldn't want to be in BG
at all, but now...I guess I'm just lonely.
This is a really awsome house in Granville. It looks like a White Castle!
This tree was struck by lightening very recently. I like this photo. I think I might do something with this.
Here's some really cute kids in the park.
Have you ever noticed that whenever you do something new/different at
first you think you've made a mistake. That's how I feel right
now. I did a lot of work on my project today, and that's
cool. But I had like zero human interaction. I'm begining
to wonder if this whole staying on campus was really such a good
idea. I mean, I'm sure things will pick up soon, but it just
sucks right now. Like when I first went to BG, the first few
months were really awkward. I had even fewer friends than when I
was at Otsego, and I was convinced that it was the biggest mistake of
my life. But then I got into the drama club, I met a lot of
people, and now I realize that it was probably the best decision I
could have made. Same with when I came to denison my freshman
year. So even though this summer might turn out good...right now
I wish I had stayed home. I thought I wouldn't want to be in BG
at all, but now...I guess I'm just lonely.
Bloodie Bonnie screamed @ 1:19 AM | top
Monday, June 06, 2005
Well, after a few very intense weeks at home, I'm back on campus. Things at home were...interesting...but in a good way.
Friday night I went camping at the Portage Quary with Rob, Ian and
Tracy. It was wonderful. It looked like it might rain, but
then the clouds just cleared and the sky came out and it was
beautiful. The booze was good, the company was better, and the
night was great.
I found that I couldn't sleep at one point though. Everyone had passed
out, and I was wide awake. So I sat by the lake and watched the
sun come up. I've never watched the sunrise from when it was
pitch black to when it was all the way up. It was a very calming
experience. I just sat there, thinking and chain smoking.
It was like I experienced every emotion possiable durring that space of
time. I went from introverted, to sad, to angry, to ashamed, to
lonely, to excited, and finally confidant. By the time the sun
was up, I felt like I could take on the world. What I did instead
was go back into the tent and sleep. It was a very interesting
night, one I will not soon forget.
Now that I'm back on campus, it's a lot easier for me to post
photos. I'd like to post one photo everyday, just to keep myself
sharp with my photography. Of course, I probably won't actually
post everyday, but whatever. I'll get started with some pictures
from friday.
The quary at sunset, facing east.
Ian jumping.
Rob being the king of the quary.
Your humble queen of the quary.
Here's a really nice picture of the clock at the courthouse in BG. I like the orange lighting.
I've been listening to Jet today, so I think I'll end with some lyrics from Move On:
Well I been thinking bout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive
Friday night I went camping at the Portage Quary with Rob, Ian and
Tracy. It was wonderful. It looked like it might rain, but
then the clouds just cleared and the sky came out and it was
beautiful. The booze was good, the company was better, and the
night was great.
I found that I couldn't sleep at one point though. Everyone had passed
out, and I was wide awake. So I sat by the lake and watched the
sun come up. I've never watched the sunrise from when it was
pitch black to when it was all the way up. It was a very calming
experience. I just sat there, thinking and chain smoking.
It was like I experienced every emotion possiable durring that space of
time. I went from introverted, to sad, to angry, to ashamed, to
lonely, to excited, and finally confidant. By the time the sun
was up, I felt like I could take on the world. What I did instead
was go back into the tent and sleep. It was a very interesting
night, one I will not soon forget.
Now that I'm back on campus, it's a lot easier for me to post
photos. I'd like to post one photo everyday, just to keep myself
sharp with my photography. Of course, I probably won't actually
post everyday, but whatever. I'll get started with some pictures
from friday.
The quary at sunset, facing east.
Ian jumping.
Rob being the king of the quary.
Your humble queen of the quary.
Here's a really nice picture of the clock at the courthouse in BG. I like the orange lighting.
I've been listening to Jet today, so I think I'll end with some lyrics from Move On:
Well I been thinking bout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive
Bloodie Bonnie screamed @ 5:45 PM | top
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Did you know that the Medical term for a woman's genetalia is Pudenda, which is a Latin word meaning "that of which one should be ashamed"? It's a fact. No wonder women have such insecurities and complexes! We've got all of history, and medicine, and society telling us that we should be ashamed of our sexuality and that we're somehow inferior.
It got me to thinking, our out look on things is determined by our socialization. Of course, some people change their outlook when they become better educated, but the socialization is there. But what exactly is it that socialized me? I mean, I don't remember ever having some sort of encounter when I was a kid where I was taught that female sexuality is something to be ashamed of. But I've still got all sorts of complexes when it comes to that issue. Maybe it was just that, the lack of information on that issue. Maybe since it's something that was never talked about, I assumed it was something shameful. I don't know. It's all very strange when you really think about it.
I got onto this subject while reading "The Hite Report on Male Sexuality". It's a very facinating book that deals with just about every subject reguarding sexuality, ranging from sex acts to social movements. It's largly based on interviews done with hundreds of men in the late 70's. There's also one on women's sexuality, but they didn't have it at Grounds. Check out Dr. Hite's website for some more information. It's really interesting stuff.
ps. have you noticed that this blog has become more of blog about things I've learned than things I've done? Oh well, I don't think anyone even reads this anymore, so I guess it's just for my personal vendication.
It got me to thinking, our out look on things is determined by our socialization. Of course, some people change their outlook when they become better educated, but the socialization is there. But what exactly is it that socialized me? I mean, I don't remember ever having some sort of encounter when I was a kid where I was taught that female sexuality is something to be ashamed of. But I've still got all sorts of complexes when it comes to that issue. Maybe it was just that, the lack of information on that issue. Maybe since it's something that was never talked about, I assumed it was something shameful. I don't know. It's all very strange when you really think about it.
I got onto this subject while reading "The Hite Report on Male Sexuality". It's a very facinating book that deals with just about every subject reguarding sexuality, ranging from sex acts to social movements. It's largly based on interviews done with hundreds of men in the late 70's. There's also one on women's sexuality, but they didn't have it at Grounds. Check out Dr. Hite's website for some more information. It's really interesting stuff.
ps. have you noticed that this blog has become more of blog about things I've learned than things I've done? Oh well, I don't think anyone even reads this anymore, so I guess it's just for my personal vendication.
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