I'm all kinds of confused...
and scared
and lost
and alone...
its nothing you did wrong.
I'm just not sure who I am anymore. I know I've changed so much, I'm just wondering if its really better. And I can't go back. I don't want to.
I'm just a stupid stupid girl.....
I just want one thing for Christmas. The ONLY thing I want, I don't deserve it. I'm so scared.
I have 2 choices...One is a sure thing, but i don't want to do it. the other requires some ammount of faith and patience, which I obviously lack.
And maybe I do care what people think of me. I mean, I don't care what 'people' think, but my friends...they mean a lot to me. And if they think less of me... do I really need to explain myself to them?
This entry is all over the place, and probably won't make much sense to anyone, but its my blog so oh well.
