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Thursday, December 30, 2004
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I'm at jenna's now. I've actually been here since tuesday. Leavng for elia's tomorrow.
Been having fun with the Flohrster. Movies, eating, ect. We're having an old fashioned girly sleep-over tonight. :D Know how I said people open up to me? It happened again. Monday I was in Wal-Mart getting my oil changed and tires rotated. I was sitting on this bench waiting, and this old guy sat down next to me. Now, I had been waiting for a long time, so I was reading a book, but he started talking to me. He told me that his son died over the holidays, he had a heart attack. I think he said he son was like 69 or something. Then he started crying. I felt really bad. It was kinda akward, casue I never know what to say when people say that stuff. I wanted to give him a hug, but I don't even know the man. So I just kinda sat there and listened to him talk. It was really depressing. Well, I'm off to do exciting things here in Pittsburgh! See you DC people soon. And see you BG people in about a week. And see you Denison people in a few weeks. And the rest of you...um...whatever! Happy New Year! |
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
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know what I find really strange? People tend to open up to me, I mean really open up. Like, people I hardly know, or complete strangers in the store will tell me their life stories and stuff thats really personal. Or people who I just like consider casual friends confide all this confidential stuff to me. its really weird.
Maybe i just find it strange because its so hard for me to open up to people like that. Seriously, I hardly ever talk about stuff thats going on in my life with people. It takes me a long time to trust people and to feel comfortable around them. and by then, they've already told me so much of their problems that I feel like by telling them mine, I'd just be adding to their burdens. Everyone comes to me, and I've got to be the one with the advice and the support. So even tho I know there are people who would do the same for me, I just don't feel like I'm able to open up to them. Everyone's so wraped up in their problems and lives. Conversations are so one sided. 'No one listens to you, they're just waiting for their turn to talk'. (The infinite wisdom and insight of Fight Club never ceses to amaze me.) No one bothers to ask how I'm doing, and if they do I feel like my problems are insignificant to theirs. Maybe I should go to support groups. Or rather, start a fight club. I've got too much anger |
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Friday, December 24, 2004
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So, i think things are better now. I feel better. Why shouldn't I? It's Christmas.
Nothing to really update, a whole lot of nothing goin on this week. Next week is another story. I'm gonna be visiting Jenna and elia. I haven't talked to Jenna yet, she's hard to get ahold of. But I should be with her tuesday thru friday morning, and should then arrive at Elia's Friday afternoon or so. I'm terriably excited, can't wait to hang out with everyone again. So yeah, that's about all I have to say about that. Merry Christmas. |
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Sunday, December 19, 2004
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I'm all kinds of confused...
and scared and lost and alone... its nothing you did wrong. I'm just not sure who I am anymore. I know I've changed so much, I'm just wondering if its really better. And I can't go back. I don't want to. I'm just a stupid stupid girl..... I just want one thing for Christmas. The ONLY thing I want, I don't deserve it. I'm so scared. I have 2 choices...One is a sure thing, but i don't want to do it. the other requires some ammount of faith and patience, which I obviously lack. And maybe I do care what people think of me. I mean, I don't care what 'people' think, but my friends...they mean a lot to me. And if they think less of me... do I really need to explain myself to them? This entry is all over the place, and probably won't make much sense to anyone, but its my blog so oh well. |
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
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This song won't stop running through my head....very fitting...
Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry Go on and close the curtains All we need is candlelight You and me and a bottle of wine Going to hold you tonight We know I'm going away How I wish....wish it weren't so Take this wine & drink with me Let's delay our misery Save tonight And fight the break of dawn Come tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be gone There's a log on the fire And it burns like me for you Tomorrow comes with one desire To take me away....it's true It ain't easy to say goodbye Darling please don't start cry 'Cause girl you know I've got to go Lord I wish it wasn't so Save tonight And fight the break of dawn Come tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be gone Tomorrow comes to take me away I wish that I......that I could stay Girl you know I've got to go Lord I wish it wasn't so Save tonight And fight the break of dawn Come tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be gone.... |
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Friday, December 17, 2004
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2 trips to Shake N Steak: $17
5 bottles of Arbor Mist: $15 My share of 4 pizzas: $5 Goblets for EVERYONE: $25 Christmas shopping: $25 DVD-R: $2.50 My share of a case of Keystone: $3 Hong Kong Buffet: $8 My share in Yeager and Vodka: $10 Surviving Finals week with my sanity (mostly) in tact: PRICELESS |
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Thursday, December 16, 2004
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so I was contemplating my sleep habits lately, and let me just say...they're a little fucked up.
Friday night - went to bed at 3, up at 9...not bad Saturday - bed at 6am, up at 12:00...alright Sunday - bed at 3 cause I was writing a paper, up at 9...its gettin old... Monday - bed at 3 (same damn paper), up at 9...so fucking tired Tuesday - i don't think i slept at all...scratch that. i did pass out at some point after 3 on shaggys couch, but it wasn't exactly a comfortable/restful sleep. woke up at 8, walked up the hill, slept for 2 hours and went back down the hill to work on art ALL DAY. its really catchin up to me... Tonight I should be in bed before 2, if i could just reach a stopping point w. this art project. And I haven't been eating either...i get so busy that I forget about it, and then I'm all 'why do I not feel well? Oh, maybe its because I've only slept for 3 hours and haven't eaten in 24'. I can't wait to go home and enter into a coma. Give me food and christmas presents introvienously. that's good shit. In other news...Heather is getting Married?!? That is totally crazy weird! As long as she's happy, that's what matters. Man, I can't believe it. And I get to be the maid of honor! Yay! wow, that's just crazy, its gonna take some getting used to for me...it always weirds me out when people my age get married, and now my best friend?! wow...but really...congrats hun. I love you soooooo much and wish you the best. So I went to this meeting today about doing research on campus this summer, and it sounds really cool. I talked to Ron, and he said he would be my advisor along with Muton...oh alexander.... and Ron is the chairman of the board that approves research projects, so if he's my advisor I'll totally get it! $3,000 plus free room and board to stay on campus and make art?! I'm down! so yeh...comming home friday, maybe saturday afternoon. Lights before Christmas @ the toledo zoo, Sunday night. be there, or suffer the wrath of a enraged hemroid. |
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
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Kristin, you are a genious. Steak N Shake does make everything better.
So does Arbor Mist and Mario Party till 530 in the morning. but that's beside the point. |
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
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Last night was fun, but ended poorly.
Yay for pirates hijacking the radio station. way to skip out on your friends on your last friday at denison John. cold. (its ok as long as you don't pull that shit tuesday night) Now, if you'll excuse me I have a shit load of work to do. |
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Friday, December 10, 2004
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I know these lyrics are hella cheezy, but I listened to the song, and they seem to be somehow appropriate.
November Rain When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same 'Cause nothin' lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain We've been through this auch a long long time Just tryin' to kill the pain But lovers always come and lovers always go An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today Walking away If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin' that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up walkin' In the cold November rain Do you need some time...on your own Do you need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time... on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Sometimes I need some time...on my own Sometimes I need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time... on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one You're not the only one |
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
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I broke up with Adam this weekend. It sucked, but it had to be done. We just weren't connecting anymore. He was really nice about it tho, so thats good.
in other news... This is the week that has eaten my soul. I just finished a 15p. paper that's due in 1 hour. I have another 15p. paper due tuesday, which I have barely started. I have an art project which will NEVER end. I have a cinema exam tuesday (which I'm not worried about at all), and an exam in Hamlet's class next friday (which I'm terrified of). I will probably spend this weekend working non-stop. :( I can't wait for tuesday night, which Elia and I have deemed drinking night. Need a reward for all my hard work, so we're planning on much revelry then. Until then, I'm extremly busy, and after then I will continue to be busy. So that's what is consuming my life right now. |
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
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Ah, last night was fun. The kind of fun which should occur more often. You guys are awsome.
I know what I need to do now, and although I'm not looking foward to it, I think it's for the best. |
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