My Begining

Saturday, November 27, 2004

So I stole this from alex...

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet + Street you live on): Tootles Ash
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food + Grandfather's first name): Chocolate Jay
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant): Gift Waffel House (that doesn't work at all....)
4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot): Chai Cancun
5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied): Ambular Charlotte
6. "FLY GUY" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): A. Yo
7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen): Icing Kool Aid
8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School): Panda BG
9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Pretzel Popov (not really my fav, but it sounds good)
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived): Autumn The 7th
11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician): Taffy Jenkins

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Things about Wednsday night that I am Thankfull for:
-My Friends (especially Heather!)
-Goth night at Uptown
-that the creapy guy eventually stopped following me when I told him I was NOT interested in 'experimenting' with his fuzzy handcufs.
-That Karly helped me 'get rid' of creepy guy.
-Tenacious D
-Getting to chill with my best friend
-sexy fishnets

(I am not thankful that Mike got us kicked out, or that my parents are driving me crazy, but that's a rant I really don't want to get into)

Happy thanksgiving.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Thanksgiving break. Been rather interesting thus far. Here's the rundown:

Friday - Came home. went to see the Otsego "Our Town" show. I hate that play, but the kids in it did a good job. props to tony and tom! And emily melted my face w. the sound board!

Saturday - Went to see the BGHS "You can't take it with you" show. Really really great show. Kristin, Tracy, Mark, Joe, Amanda, you guys all rocked my face off. Alex, you stole the show! I Love Nader hugs!!!!!! Even when they end in my covered in clown makeup. After the show we (and by we, i mean EVERYONE) went to waffel house. Then Kristin and I went and harrassed bobby d. It was good to see him again.

Sunday - went to see "The Producers". it was a very theatrical weekend. Wonderful play. Ran into alex there. it was fun.

Monday - went to what was arguably the best concert i've ever gone to. When I got here friday I heard on the radio that Lit and The Riddlin Kids were gonna be at this bar in Toledo. So Tracy and I got tickets and decided to go. so i told my mom we'd be headed out, and she was cool. but then my dad gets home early, and as I'm walking out the door, he flips a gasket. He's all "That bar is in the worst part of toledo...blah blah blah." I had to literally show him a map to get him to shut up about it. And once he dropped that he gets all "Don't go in the mosh pits, avoid drunk people, every man you meet is a potential rapeist...blah blah blah". I mean, I understand his concern, but its not like its the first concert I've been to. I know how to handle myself at a concert. bah.

ANYWAYS....I picked up Tracy and we headed into toledo, and let me just say....FUCK YOU TOLEDO. The roads are shitty and unmarked and scarry, and they constantly merge, curve, fork, change names ect.... So the address of the bar is N. Detroit, so one would assume the fucking place is on DETROIT, right??? Wrong! It's actually on a different street that forks off of detroit, but faces detroit. So we drove past it like 4 times cause I was focusing on trying to stay on Detroit. So we drove up and down the same shitty street for like a half hour until we finally found Headliners. We go in, and the opening band hasn't even started yet. talk about good timing.

the first 2 bands were kinda crappy, so tracy and i just sat and talked for a while. But Riddlin Kids were awsome. They really put on a good show. The crowd was small, but really energetic and the band really seemed to feed off of that. There was a small mosh pit goin, but nothin bad. Then Lit came on, and lemme just say, they were awsome. I mean, they are a big enough band to not play shitty little bars anymore, but they did, and they really put on a GREAT show. They were very high energy and seemed honestly appriciative of the fans. Tracy and I somehow mannaged to squeeze our way to the front, where I was able to molest the beautiful lead singer (I touched his nipple ring and his thigh!!!) and shake hands w. the lead guitarist. It was a great show. Afterwards, even when I went to bed, my ears were ringing and my throat was raw, but it was a happy kind of pain.

So that's break thus far. I'm goin to goth night with heather tomorrow, and i'm not sure what else the week holds, so that's an update.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

So john's blog made me think of my own favorite memories. Most of these are my life before college, or this past summer...

-Panama City with Heather, 1st and greatest road trip ever.
-Camping in the Ozarks with my folks.
-Running amuck in Meijer with Rob and Ian in Meijer in women's clothing.
-Working on Complete Works of Shakespeare with all my friends. best play ever.
-That time Bryan, Molly and I got lost in the woods looking for the quary.
-Attempting to wade across the Maumee river with Bryan, molly and zac.
-Countless nights out on the trampoliene with molly and bryan.
-Getting lost in Toledo while dressed as pirates looking for the Art Museume.
-playing in the fountains at BGSU.
-hanging out in Ian's garage while the band played and kristin and I discussed waffels.
-waffel house. need i say more...
-getting caught in a thunderstorm while kyacking by myself. closest to death I think I've ever come.
-lazer tag and burger king with the old school gang.
-everything about Micah...there's too much to say here.
-The Donna's concert with mark.
-pissing off all of otsego with heather and bryan. social outcasts till we die.
-driving around BG blaring the offspring with Ian. (come back from spain)
-Browns Sundays with my dad.
-The first night we left him in the hospital. not so much a favorite memory, but one of the most vivid. He would stand by the window and wave to mom and me when we were in the parking lot. Even from the car, as we drove away I could still see him there, his hair had fallen out by then.
-Torturing Melissa (grasiosa pajaro) with bryan and heather.
-That time when the me and the procussion guys locked Johnson in a tuba locker and he was stuck there for 3 periods till the janator could get him out. man, that was awsome.
-Toronto with Heather and Katie.
-Hangin with Amber and Josh in the middle school cafeteria.
-The morning we heard Amber died. Another one of those most vivid, but not favorite.
-Crusin with Kristin after that great breakfast Cafe we went to. That entire day was simply wonderful.
-Being backstage after all the plays, watching the boys frolick nakedly.
-STRIP SPOONS
-That time Zac lost at spoons so we made him dress up like a woman and go buy tampons at the carry out!!
-hanging out on the roof until the sun came up with Micah.
-Camp Miami year after year with Lisa, Kyle and Pibb. It rained that entire first week, but it was one of the best weeks of my life.
-All the adventures with my Uncle Ed in Mexico. He nearly got arrested and attacked by a monkey all in 1 day. Just hangin out in hammocks listenin to him tell stories.
-Gettin lost with my mom for hours on end and not caring if we ever made it home.
-Rocky Horror nights with the gang.
-Hangin with Kat and watchin Law and Order well into the night.
-Getting locked out of my car at the theater with Rob, Kristin and Ian.
-OTI and all the awsome people there. I miss you mike.
-Wandering wintergarden park at the Winter's Tale cast party.
-6 grad parties in one night. delightful...
-sitting in the back of freshman english with micah, hating the entire world together.

damn.... now I'm all reflective. not so much sad, not so much happy...just quiet. now i miss micah. i haven't thought about him for a long time. those days are so far away now, but i think that's good. my life is different now, in a much better way. Otsego seems like such a distant place, like a different lifetime. i've come so far, with so much left to go. life is beautiful. Beautiful in a desperate, confusing, sad, delicious sort of way.

Monday, November 15, 2004

So this weekend was enjoyable. Friday elia, jenna and I went shopping. I got 2 skirts for $3 and 3 tops for $7 and a pair of shoes for $9. Very succesful. Then Adam and I watched a movie. That was nice cause I haven't gotten to see him much lately.

Saturday night a bunch of us girls dressed up pretty and went to Red Lobster for Elia's birthday. That was real nice. Then we came back here and pre-partied. We pulled together our funds and were able to buy $55 worth of booze, so that was awsome. Then around 10 we went down to king and hung out with Phil and John et al. Played lots of beruit, got thoroughly drunk and had an all around good evening.

I was kinda upset about something yesterday, but I think it was mostly cause I had a paper to write. I'm happy now, things are good. the end.

Friday, November 12, 2004

Iris - The GooGoo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I could taste is this moment
and All I could breathe is your life
And sooner or later its over
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't commin
there's a moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies,
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Stole this from Tarcy. hehe, I owe you $10!

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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Disclaimer: This entry is not directed at anyone in particular. My friends know who they are, and obviously they are not the people I am talking about, so don't leave me notes telling me you aren't like that. This is intended as a rant about the fucktards on campus, and certain people who probably don't read this anyways. Thank you.

Sometimes I just can't stand people. I was in one of my classes today, and I overheard a guy saying:
"I just can't take it. I went and stood in line for 3 hours to voice my opinion and vote on something important, and I feel like it didn't even matter because people just don't think."

There is something seriously flawed with his logic here. He and MANY other liberals I have encountered today seem to be under the impression that they are the only ones who have beliefs and convictions. Obviously there are other people, and MORE of them, who have beliefs and convictions which differ from their own. That doesn't mean these people do not think, that they are blindly following a heard. It means that they formed their OWN opinion, went and stood in line for 3 hours too and voiced their stance on something they believed in. It astounds me that liberals are constantly portrayed as the openminded ones when they refuse to even consider any other view points but their own. And they CONSTANTLY shove their own beliefs and convictions on other people. I have NEVER berrated someone because they are liberal or non-Christian, but I am CONSTANTLY attacked because of my own beliefs. Also, they are always passing judgement on me. Based on my appearence (piercings, dyed hair, thrift-store clothes) people assume that I am liberal. And when they find out I'm not, they go into a tizzy and drill me as to why I would do such as thing. Even people who know me act as if I am their enemy when they find out I am politically conservative.

I have never experienced so much open hostility before in my life. Being on campus today is totally insane. People's away messages are violent and hateful. In particular:
"If I see one republican today, it's over for them....and I'm a pacifist." - (one of my "friends")
I understand that they are dissappointed that something they believe in is not comming to pass, but honestly if it were the other way around I WOULD NOT ATTACK MY PEERS. Your hateful words are not going to change the outcome of the election, and all you are doing is proving yourself to be hypocratical and closed off. It blows your mind to consider that I, someone you know to be a kind, loving, intelligent person could also be conservative. Why is it so hard for people to drop their preconcieved notions and just accept people for who they are? I mean, bassically all my friends are liberal, and very much so. But I have never let that come in the way of our relationships. I have never pushed my personal beliefs on others, and I have never attacked anyone because they simply don't agree with me. I would expect the same in return, its just common politness. I'm not saying you can't express your opinion, but don't attack me when I do the same and it just happens to be different from your own.

People need to practice what they preach.

Monday, November 01, 2004

So yeh, Halloween is now my 2nd favorite holiday.
And this Halloween was probably the best Halloween since the time in 2nd grade when Lisa and I won a costume contest.

This Halloween consisted of:

Friday night: Party in Shaw. I got very drunk. As did Vasada(for the first time), Max and Elia. Also, I think we now have a new friend...Huddie.

Saturday Night: Homestead party. Need I say more?

Sunday Night: Yellowcard concert. It was great. I don't care what any of u duche bags say, I love Yellowcard. Jenna and I had big fun watching a boy in the crowd air guitar with his crutches. We then happened to sit next to him at Steak and Shake...he stared at us for 5 min. straight. Great night all around.

Life is so fucking good, I think I may explode.